Have u ever walked into a room of people
Yet the people never sees you
So u scream so they notice
But their to normal to hear
U fear judgement yet u judge
Feel alone yet ur not alone
Ur in a room of people that cant see
The Uniqueness that hides within a cage
That's the beginning of being me
U write a list of how to fit in yet u don't
Then u stop.....just a moment to see
Beauty that comes from a tiny shell
Creativity from ur dreams
And love from ur heart
Again u think realizing ur being judged
By the cruelty of no one else but urself
Remembering the pain pain that stays
To find out ur weird not normal
Again think whats normal
That's the middle of being me
U cry out of pain out of scars
Then smile, then laugh not 4 a joke
But of memory Happiness u cant live without
Songs touch ur heart u feel love
Stories makes u laugh like ur alive
Movies that opens ur eyes
To the world of judgement of cruelty
Cruelty that makes u hate urself
Just to see ur perfect
Perfect in everyway threw ur eyes
That's wat matters yet u feel alone
Alone is walking in the woods or crying urself to sleep
U laugh realizing ur not alone
Ur not in a room of people
There is no people its ur head
Ur imagination of worst situation
U look around all u see is the truth
Friends and family smiling at u
Vacations that last forever
Siblings that warms ur heart
U forget the pain that never ends
The nagging of who to be
U say who cares I'm perfect
Perfect is not the best
Perfect is unique, original not ordinary or normal
U feel happiness and love pour out like a waterfall
You belong belonging is the most important
Belonging is home a house a place of love and comfort
That place is never gone never lost only locked
Locked from pain pain that surprisingly has an end
Judgement that stops from within
U feel whole whole like a family mom dad brother sister aunts uncles
U look around that's all u see
The hearts that beat
The hands that clap
4 u have been awarded not of school not for class but of imagination
Imagination that ruins your life imagination that begins ur life in a instant
Now its awkward awkward like u cant speak awkward like no words
Its silent silent like horror films
U listen listen to the voices the voices no one knows because its ur head ur head that leads to imagination
Imagination that drives u crazy but makes u feel worth something till it's gone
You think ur crazy u need a hospital but knowing it wont help
U finally understand ur different different as don't belong no home no safe zone
The safe zone is love that's locked from the bitter pain inside
The pain that comes back the pain that lives
Lives in your soul in your mind lives in your heart
Back to square one ur alone Alone as u run away away in your head ur imagination that never ends the tormenting of fear in ur heart from the pain in ur soul
U sleep sleep in the bed the bed u remember the good times times of jokes of family time
U finally know ur not alone alone like the me time people say to getaway
Ur loved loved like the red roses in spring
Ur happy happy with life happy with u
The pain that stays goes away in a cage locked fear that was forced out by the happiness of being wanted
U found ur safe zone the zone that unlocked the comfort that pours out the doors
Ur finally u the u that's perfect
That's being me
©orchid
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