Sometimes pain runs deeper then blood. Sometimes karma comes back on the ones you love.Sometimes we gotta let go and turn the other way so we can keep fighting for another day.Everything has a cause u might not like the effect. I'm constantly forced to make decisions some of you might not respect .In this world full of judgement Im just an outcome of a mother neglect.As a child I never did get to smile nope not even for a little while you give my mom an inch and she'd steal your whole mile.my mom was no brady she was more like something from 8 mile. Love was never her style she called me evil anything but something given to her by God. From the day I was born I was so deeply flawed.When you got pain like I do it's almost impossible to run and hide. 35 and still try not to cry. You people get so upset when its your friends betraying you but what if it was your mama you know the one who was always supposed to remain true? who was supposed to comfort you when you had the flu?You know the one who's supposed to help you become the best version of yourself? but instead she"s the cause of the most pain u ever felt.A child turning to the streets looking for anything but love So much pain you question if theres a maker above. Learning to use drugs as a means to escape.wondering why mama calls you her biggest mistake. surviving blow after blow because u go to that make believe place but in the same day hiding the tears behind a smiling face.So now how would you deal with a temper so angry all because your you and your here It takes everything you got just to face yourself in the mirror.would you approach everything with that same childhood fear or would you attack life like a beast.Knocking anyone who stands tall off there feet making anyone who wanted your time compete not loving anyone and nobodys points seem valid Just as your sick angry mother did? or would you promise yourself as that scared little kid. to be non violent yes i did it I broke the chain. nobody blames me for there childhood pain and to this day i swear it drives that woman insane.She is no longer my mama nor someone i have to respect but with every cause has a effect. make sure your effect is something you can live with and accept and not something you will one day regret.
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