It went from fits of fury. To outbursts of rage. To you I'm just a disease. Thought only hell would accept me. Turned all my motives to God. Demanded he heal me. Dr. said here take these. Fuck you. I don't want your poison. How can this be? I got my head in my knees. My mind is not at ease. I'm so displeased. I say how I feel. Everyone disagrees. I feel unsafe. I'm such a disgrace. Get out my face! Demons Telling me to kill myself. Someone help! Sometimes I wanna scream or flee. I'm running on e. I need to feel less. I'm so stressed. Always depressed. Getting dressed is a struggle. It's been years since I let out a chuckle. Someone knuckle up. Cause I do not give a fuck. I'm constantly in a rage. I have not slept in days. Im scared. When does this end? Dr. said never. Guess it's me and bipolar forever.
If you are bipolar. Will power is a muscle. If exercised everyday. It does not get easier. You get stronger. Keep pushing. We got this.
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