"Remember those nights where I was on my knees and Prayed,
Up to my God above to keep me upright as I felt my life was on that road to being Decayed,
In each and every way as I was at a dead End,
Trying so hard to stay strong but I could feel myself starting to Bend,
Feeling the faint beating of my heart getting slower and slower by the second as it was running out of Juice,
Questioning my self by asking the question, "Jamaree what is your true Use?",
Laying down and closing my eyes for that permanent rest seemed to be what was Best,
For me at that dark moment in time but it was just a Test,
To see that no matter what obstacles or turmoil that was heading in my direction, how would I Respond,
Stand up fully and strongly on all ten toes or fall wayside by that Pond?,
I chose the first option as I'm so proud that I didn't give up on Myself,
And didn't give in so easy and put my soul up on the devil's fiery Shelf,
I'm doing so much better in my life now but I still have those moments of hopefulness as I'm continuing to develop and Grow,
As I always will have that reminder in my head and tell myself look how far you've come you smart and humble young man from those wars within your own conscience and achieving victories from those wars with your blood on the Snow ..."
©jamaree
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