I don't know why I feel paranoid
at the slightest thing I get annoyed
this state of mind I try to avoid
I feel like my life is void
I am neither deployed or employed
I am totally devoid
of being overjoyed
the truth is I am bored
I don't know why I am mentally stressed
when I no longer think
I don't know why I am physically stressed
when I do nothing all day
I feel like I live my life in circles
the same pattern everyday
I sleep and I wake and I sleep and I wake
sometimes I pray I don't wake
I am tired of this silly routine
I wonder when God would free me
cause I am becoming delusional
and I am losing my mind .
I don't know why I am emotionalIy stressed
when I no longer have feelings
i don't know why I miss people and I don't call ?
the truth is I don't even talk to myself again
I don't know when I would be alive again
because I have forgotten why I am here
this problem is too much to bear
I don't know if I am alive or dead .
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