Huffing and puffing
to get the breath in
anxiety building
change grimace to grin
Put on the mask
Polish the external
no one can tell
my misery is eternal.
Fake it to make it
just for one afternoon
It's all that's asked of me
filled with despair and gloom
But no one else can tell
If I keep up the smile.
If I bite my tongue to silence
It will last for a while
I know I am brave
I don't just give in
To a phantom feeling
I won't ever let win.
There are good days
There is always the reverse
It comes out of no where
And it's intent is perverse.
Why does my brain work this way
You'd think it would be on my side
Not cowering away from life
peaks and troughs rollercoaster ride.
©wrennie
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