I am broken inside because I have to hide my feelings. So you won't see it. I see your pain. But you don't see my pain. I have to keep my feelings hidden from you. So you won't see me cry. I know you are going thew a lot right now. You are in pain. I have to put all my motion aside. So you can heal. Meantime I hurt. I am hiding all my thought and feelings. I don't want to be selfish. When I know you are trying your best for me. So I smiled at you. So you can think I am ok. But realized I was broke. It would help if you didn't see me this way. So I hid all my tears because I could feel your pain. Now that you have taken care of yourself. I am left alone with the stress of life. With no one to comfort me. Tell me everything is going to be ok. Because you not ok. I am lost myself because I put you first. Now it is just me and my pain. I am here with a broken heart—no one to talk to. You left me when I needed you the most. But I am not the selfish one. Because you have to go and fit you, your pain will stop. I will keep going. Now I don't have any words, only tears. I know you didn't want to go. But I have to let you go so you can heal. Now I am alone. Now I have to be vital for both of us because being weak is not in the picture. You are my backbone. Now that you have gone, who going to pick up the piece? Now it's just me and my feelings. I am putting myself second again and trying to stay vital for you. When you return, I pray you are more robust because I am holding back everything inside and putting my feelings aside for you, and trying not to break. By saying I am ok. So you can heal. I was trying to breathe. Hold back the tears. The only thing is doing drains me. I am broken. So you can be completed it. So next time I see you, I hope you are free from within. So I can breathe. Don't feel the pain within you. So I can heal. I do not want to cry anymore. Please, god, wash over him. So I can heal my heart—no more broken tears. To live my life without drama. Free to love. So I can smile. I don't have to hide behind my tears anymore. You will be free to be yourself again. So we can live in peace. We both be pain-free.
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