Do you know how many times I've cried?
Do you know how many times I said never again?
No, you don't
I've cried so many moons
I've held in so many tears
I had wishful thinking and where did it get me!
In a like of you, in this crazy idea of you with me instead of him and me
My feeling for him have not fully left and you cannot expect them to go away fast, but I am forgetting
But why do you care? Well I do not know if you even do.
But if... why?
What do you get out of us?
You don't want me in a public way
You want me hidden and for fun
I'm not asking for anything, just going with the flow, but you have the nerve to leave my hanging with no explanation
With a seeming avoidance.
Why is it when I get even a little bit close to someone I end up being the only one found
Standing there looking foolish
I later think I should have know better
I shouldn't be thinking about men right now
My heart is a all over the place and it's making my head a mess
Over the wall is my dignity, myself love and respect
Only in thought do I have nothing left
Though nothing has officially taken place, scattered on the wall with the intent of....
©savy
S