I reach out to the world, my arms fully extended,
Every effort for belonging is unapprehended,
Connections ungrasped by my hands extended,
So right here I continue to be alone,
Ether I have exhausted every interest contained,
Or with my own lack of trying i stay restrained,
Seems the same end result is normally obtained,
Rarely is difference to me ever shown,
Within every attempt both sides vear their heads,
Like a wildfire all possibilities quickly spreads,
Continuing into concerns of what's in peoples heads,
Something that causes my inevitable fail,
Never able to believe in the confidence within,
For I lost something before I'll always lose it again,
Reality of it all i forgot all comforts within my own skin
I cant escape this, as my own design, becomes my hell.
©justin_ur
J