you get your bad days
along with the good
and if i could change the past
i promise you i would
i did things to feel important
but now look where thats got me
deep in this depression
and nothing ever stops it
i feel like im smothered
and covered in this pain
but whenever i need help
we're all in difderent lanes
i manage to keep going
but its killing me inside
because every time they ask me
i tell them "yea im fine"
my dad left me young
but many can relate
& as i grew older all i did was hate
when i met my 1st love
everything had changed
i felt like i mattered
because he took my fathers place
in a way he protected me
when my family wasnt there
but now i let that go
because the love was never there
i say that im happy
to hide from the truth
because to be honest with you
theres nothing else to do
when i say how i feel
people dont understand
i hate myself daily
and thatll never f*king change
my mom gets mad
when i tell her how i feel
but she also gets mad
when i express how i feel
now i dont really care
about anything anymore
they tell me to keep striving
to find what i live for
i want to give up
but then again i dont
because i wanna feel better
but i kinda know i wont
as years go by
allot is still the same
you will always have fake people smiling in your face
J