I believed that we were doing so good
while u were up at Susy house
you had your weight up and your mind right
We had a couple disagreements but nothing that lasted long and nothing we could not work out
I trusted you 120 percent as well as you trusting me
You appreciated me for every letter phone call and visits that I made
you showed me respect and love and affection
you had me floating on cloud nine every day because your mine
but then all hell broke loose and the devil with his demons finally broke u
they moved you closer to home closer to hell because that's what it's felt like since u got out here
not even 24 hrs after u touched down you needed money for something then a day later u needed more
red flags going off all over and I know what's going on
did u forget I use to get high with u so I know the signs and behaviors
well no need to go on and on. two months later here we are barely speaking to one another , trust issues , insecure at a all time high
my crying almost every night
while u sit in there and bullshit and lie and continue to get high
and I'm left asking can this really be happening
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