It’s that pain again that comes from
below my heart and tries to force my heart
through my ribs like grated cheese or sliced ham.
My ribs clench together in an attempt to stop
the pain but the pain never ends it just makes me
feel like I’ve been through the slicer again.
The pain comes when I realize that in my desire
to love you I have not always been the kindest
of lovers or of friends and oh how my chest aches.
I fear that you will leave me because I am
hurtful and needy and have taken up a lot of
your strength and compassion for granted.
I cannot stand the pain and want it to go away
so I will try even harder to make sure that I am not using
or hurting you so we love deep from our hearts again.
©ronvdm777
May 2020
©ronvdm777
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