Change this is something that's guaranteed one of the only things in your lifetime that you can bank on
change want let You down it might not be exactly when you want it or how you want it but it will be there and it will happen
This last year I have went through my own hell I knew change was coming
everybody can feel change slipping in whether they acknowledge this is on them some may not even realize. This is the ending results in that experience that changes them why they may think the experience itself is what they was feeling it's not that experience is just something that was necessary in order to bring change about that's it change could be like seasons in simple terms me however am a person who does not like change I fight it until the fight is what changes me either way the experience or the fight change happens like a blanket being lifted and your vision becomes a little clearer
CHANGE
I welcome you this time change I have fought you for a year and now that you are here I open my arms to you embrace you and am ready to ride your wave
I now know this change this transition this reincarnation can only make me a better me make me more whole and give me a better understanding as I have fought hard to prolong your arrival I have also prepared for you I knew prolonging was the only thing I could do and now I am done fighting I am done preparing I have done everything I have needed to do in order to fully transition without any hitches I have got my self sober I have mourned my losses I have set my mind to change and am Ready and waiting on you I look forward to this arrival
I can't wait to see who I become I have a feeling I will like the person I am meant to become more then I like me at this point and time now I am taking care of all the small stuff that needs to be taken care of the necessities I will call them glasses, license, car, etc you know everything a person needs to fully function on their own I must warn you though as I know change is standing at my door waiting for the right moment to enter I do have baggage I am Taking with me what I call all life lessons I feel as though these will be useful to me in my next life they will help me to succeed at the change thats at hand I feel like I am In the struggle of my life right now and it has nothing to do with a drug it's a personal struggle within myself a struggle I will win
I have a strong desire of knowing me on a different level this is why I welcome you now change you will be my friend this time I promise you I will not fight you every step we take instead I will hold your hand and walk beside you I will this time open my eyes to the beauty change offers as it's happening instead of being blind to it all until it's over change I give you my word I am one person eagerly awaiting your knock but I have to ask you something in return I am still scared and I ask you to take this into consideration I'm asking you to take your time with me I'm asking you to point out your beauties to me just so I can see just how truly beautiful you are I will be nervous and I will miss them I'm asking you to be a little more then your usual self please be my guide as we begin this journey together you eagerly awaiting friend
Angela Oaks
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