I've prayed
Steadfastly
Asking
LORD
What should I do
Stay or go
Because in this place
I am miserable
Friends are fake
Neighbors prey
Waiting for opportunity
To rape
I don't feel safe
My neighbor
Caught me slipping
A drifted off to sleep
He took the opportunity
To make me his victim
I tried to get help
But received no protection
He robbed me of safty
Violated my body
Left me traumatized
With trembling
panic attacks
Triggers everywhere
Causing flashbacks
Constant anxiety
Acute stress
I'm already
Bipolar
Now docters added
PTSD to the list
I couldn't sleep at night
For almost a year
Night terrors
Forcing me to relive
To event
Again and again
I lost 50 pounds
No appetite at all
I only ate to stay alive
I still don't know why
Because I was
begging to die
I have a history
Of many suicide attempts
But this time
All I wanted to do
Was hurt him
Make him suffer
Like he did to me
Thank God
I trust In the scriptures
Daily and nightly
I would repeat
God's vengeance
Is far greater than mine
My health began to deplete
Every day
I woundered
If I was going to die
I became obsessed
With the AFTERLIFE
Mom asked me
Do I want her
To sell our house
And move away
Never having
To see that man again
At first I got pissed
Just at the thought of It
This is my home mom
And I'm
gonna stand my ground!
Finally
God spoke to me
My child
you don't have to live like this
In constant fear
Trust me
I have much better plans
Instore for you
But you must
Take my word
By faith
Pack up your thing's
It's time for you
To be happy and safe
Once again
This move
Your about to make
Is ordained by me
Predestined for you
Trust in me
And I shall
Take you from
Faith to faith
And Glory to Glory
This tragedy
Is definitely not
The end of your story
Be obedient
I'll direct your path
Divinely place you
Were you can
Come out of your cocoon
I'm strategically
Placing you
Where you can finally fly
Prosper and succeed
Your about to live
That Abundant life!
Jeremiah 29:11 New International Version (NIV)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future
Isaiah 43:18-19 King James Version (KJV)
18 Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old.
19 Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert
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