Feeling feelings that don't tear my brain apart
It's a massive relief today, I may do some art.
I can breath without drawing air against the mountain on my chest.
Today will be a day of Contentment not rest.
The harbinger of doom that Overwhelms my senses.
Has lifted itself and I don't need my defences.
In my mind there is a Stubbon woman
Who wants to be better and still be open
When of course the meds run out
In the silent space I own i'll shout.
Trying to wrangle, bribe, maniuplayte
Stuck with myself trying to negotiate.
I can't jump the hurdles that are routinely gotten over.
Circumventing is my way, to get around.
A journey of discovery and I have found...
Written on my hands the inside not out. These are the things I remember and never doubt. The ink will fade but I will all ways know.. That the things I've learnt are what's making me go. On and on Untill the end even though am cliniquly round a bend
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"this is my universe,"
that I don't mind sharing.
People are great when they are caring.
"Everywher'n" is my word for the dimension of my mind.
If indeed its there and if indeed to find
"people are people are people are people"
Unquiquly designed everyone somehow a bit abnormal.
"Truth works best" , don't make me point..
Honesty is the key that won't diaapoint.
"I count! As 1". of billions.
If I am right with the calculations
Life is as doing. My methodology
To work out the difference between
Virtual reality makeing me suffer
With no hope of cure
Proving to me that reality is solid.
From shineing stars to gutter stuck squalid
The best advice of them all is "don't carry the mountain". Difficult to achieve, but worth it. .
©wrennie
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