Decided to stay after all.
Been gone for too long, doing things you hate.
Decided to be bad and forget about you.
Choosing to do life myself.
Leaving you behind and wondering, if he will ever be back.
After all, you have been through, cause of me.
After taking on so much pain, fighting for me.
Yes, you fought for someone undeserving like me.
And still you kept on stretching your arms out, to receive me.
Never thought it meant anything.
Cause I was just enjoying what you had to offer, without giving anything back.
Yes, I took from you but never gave you back, even though I can't give you things like you give me things.
It was painful, to have used you for so long and you never bothered but kept giving.
Now I am lost gone too far, and really missing you.
Yes, I am missing all your gifts and love you showed me.
Never thought it matters much but obviously, it was more than I could understand.
It was love beyond my own understanding and I need you back.
Forgive me, for being disobedient.
Forgive me, for not trusting you enough and relying on you.
Forgive me, that I was carried away by my own desires and diverse lust's.
Will you find it in your heart to forgive me and hold my hand along your path.
Finally,I ask you help me.
Do not let my fleshly lust's destroy me.
Pushing me away from you and your love.
Help me find you, focus on you, do you, live you, and be you.
©spiritfly
S