Chris was a boy who gave me such joy
Promises of forever
Yes, he played with me like a toy
Like a fool in love he made me believe that all his love was truly for me
It was he who brought this newfound excitement into my life, giving me a love I haven't yet tried
His love burned a hole through my chest like a bullet going through a worn-out vest
Our love felt sacred and at once it felt pure
As suspicions of tainted love rise my eyes go blind, I lye there helpless and unsure
He said that maybe it'd be best if we spent some time apart and that I shouldn't take this short separation to heart but how could I not take his words to heart when he became the one who could build me up just as fast as he could tear me apart
I wonder why he can't love me
I wonder why he's choosing to leave
Did he ever really love me?
No.. with tears in my eyes I begin to cry as I drop down to my knees
Just before I rose from the ground I realized that his love has been killing me softly, I'm no longer the me I used to be
My freedom has been lost in something I thought was real love and maybe "us" was never truly meant to be
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