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confused

We started as friends, now we have benefits. I admired you from afar before. Now we do it secretly. 
In the beginning I tried and tried so hard to not have feelings. They grew as we kept going. I know the consequences, I know we're not in a relationship.
I cheated on him, you cheated on her. That's how we became friends with benefits. We both have our issues, we are toxic. 
I need to let go, but I can't. My feelings grew and you told me you love me, that didn't help. I could no longer push back the feelings. 
Slowly our casual sex turned into love making. It was fun, but now it feels real. I feel like I'm drowning, drowning in feelings. 
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