forgiveness
such a heavy word
they say it's a
two way street
where the same
lines must meet
absurd I always thought
do I forgive you
do I forgive me
do I forgive and forget
is forget apart of forgive
does this mean
I can let go
if I truly forgive every indiscretion
do I get room to live
can I breathe once again
is forgiveness inside of me
something I can do
or something
I talk over philosophically
in the advice I give
can I take my own advice
should I be the one
that always makes it right
a lifetime of forgiveness
and I never forgave myself
I never forgave that
little girl in me
always acting out of
anger and sadness
I buried her
in self destructive tendencies
I suffocated her
until finally she could not breathe
I have spent
most of my life
holding onto hate
and pain
tears shed in despair
pedestals I was unable to reach
stairs I never dare climb
insufficient was I
with no confidence or grace
I repeatedly fell on my face
no care that I was there
it's where I belonged
for so very long
©morgan2020
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