Paint me villian as you see me break.
I feel silly like a tortured freak.
One step forward is more like a crawl.
Five steps backwards and now I fall.
I know I shouldn't be so intense.
But you've seen me in need hanging from the fence.
I'm bluefaced filled with regrets.
I've spent my life running from your influence.
All my energy has been spent.
I'm sick of suffering the fuckin consequence.
I wish there was a better way to fix the pain I'm in.
It's my penance for my life of sin.
I used to work my fingers to the bone .
Now I don't want to leave my home.
It's hard!!, Fuck yeah it's hard .
I'm feeling like I've come apart.
Please save your fake .
You can choke on my hate.
I'm sick of suffering the fuckin consequence.
My pride is broken from the fall.
I'm holding on to many things .
Brooding in the hate it brings.
I wasn't given a choice!!
Hell yeah I'm angry now I've found my voice.
All of your illusions have been spent.
Your delusions polluted my innoncence.
I'm sick of suffering the fuckin consequence.
Here I lay motionless and breathless.
Waiting for the cool night air to resucitate me.
I'm frozen in the moment.
My skin is crawling inside.
I want to shout at the top of my lungs.
Longing for this feeling to pass.
Those who judge me can kiss my Ass.
I'm not looking for their opinions and I have a clean conscience.
I'm sick of suffering the fucking consequence.
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