Eyes heavy
Lack of sleep
Craving nutrients
Watching you go on about your day while I have tears in my eyes
Constantly being set back when necessary conversations are being ignored
How many times do I just let this be?
Fighting myself
Convincing myself to have patience
Having faith it'll change one day
Telling myself "you'll see"
How long do you have patience with someone thats experienced love differently?
In areas in which you dream to be
My mouths dry
No conversation
I made an announcement of temporary separation
Our actions just made it that much easier
Maybe even permanently
How many times do I have to say my feelings are important?
Are we really going to make me show an example?
Will that cause change?
Or will it be considered a phase
Do you really think I want it to be this way?
Joyful is what I deserve to be
Doesnt take money
Just knowing you purposely want to be with me
Willingly
I dont trust you to have my back when my back is turned
Longevity isnt important
Those already happy aren't caring
However loyalty does
Do you know the difference?
Why does good get treated bad while bad is treated good?
Tears in my eyes
Thirsting
Questioning will I even say yes to the ring
It's such a dream
Meaningful to me
Continual disappointment yet Im doing it to me
Please
It takes more than one person to make one unhappy
Space isnt what I want
Space isnt what I need
It's becoming necessary
For me to continue to believe.
©tynethayes
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