waking up in my screams and agony like a newborn baby screaming for air.
suffocating on every wind as I opened my eyes to the fact I'm not ok I'm just fine.
"fine" meaning I'm not ok as I lay here wanting to die wanting to ease the pain.
pills only numb me.
shots often irritate me.
whiskey is just water to me.
wine is somewhat tolerable.
but I dream of your touch and my heart aches to melt for you.
yet a constant ache is still there in my chest.
hollow.
deep.
the hole that makes me bleed.
I cut just to be numb to everything.
yet you are the only drug I rather feed.
my dark desires that only taunt me at night.
yet your kiss is like candy to me.
your body is like my only kryptonite.
your touch is like the itch leaves me to scratch.
your breasts is the heaven that melts me.
your thighs is the hell that only burn for me.
your pussy is the fantasy that feeds my beast.
yet your ass tames my soul.
so I cut just to see the blood red.
just to feast on what's left and
what is dead?
I relish in the pain.
puddles of Red I lay in.
just to feel.
just to be alive.
just to feel undead.
yet I'm a cutter I born screaming long in the night.
your dark immortal.
yet I lurk in the shadows knowing what it is like to be alone.
to be dead.
finding beauty in the dark as you give me head.
yet your lipstick stained lips are my poisonous kiss that feels so good yet I love to sin.
you're mine and the only way to go is with the inevitable win.
©darkdeity
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