'Dark Sayings'
© Raul Cortes Jr. 10-27-19
They say that you can have ten consecutive great instances..
But when you get that one tragedy, all the great memories diminishes.
My parents outworked their emotional & psychological health.
Too exhausted to raise me, television became their stealth.
They owned up to their legal obligations.
So I had to make up for their lack of presence, nurture, training & creative cultivation.
Stepdad introduced me to adult films, molested by stepbro.
As a preteen, I was socially awkward, made fun of & isolated from the get go.
I can't say that my parents are bad.
A machete through my chest & head..
I still won't second guess..
That they loved me from within the capacity that they had.
How can a child be raised by freaks of control?
How can anyone I've ever been toxic to unsee how I needed to be consoled?
Forgiveness is for my emotional benefit.
I won't have tears for those that brought me here, due to deception & negligence. They hardly prove me wrong, instead prove me right.
For in sight & in light of these words, they have a dark pulse to fight out of spite.
Praise God, I'm not absent of self-objection.
Growing wiser as I mold these rhymes up, so my offspring will know the lesson.
©polo
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