If I choose to walk away tomorrow, this story will be told by pastors to make reference about the kind of harm self conflict can bring and I promise I hate that I have to call myself to this meeting at least 3 or 5 times a day.
I would have start by apologizing to myself, for treating me like a falling company. Even the board members of my personality have started to pull their investments and for the longest time I have had to watch my resentment make side deals with abominations to create something inside of me depression would call a good business partner.
I have forgotten that there is light in every tragic situation. And I have lost the fuel to keep my fire burning, Instead I'm laying on crosses hoping that someday I'll stop hurting...
I have tried to fight, but sometimes I'm trying to create a bigger mess, feeding my anger jokes about admiration. Sometimes I have to hold myself together stop talking to friends such as suicide.
And ask myself questions like, why can't you remember that forgiveness is the only weapon strong enough to load the ammunition built to kill hatred.
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