Can this really be?
In the mirror starring back at me
It isn't me I see in the mirror
Its fear I see in a thousand horrors
Trade with my eyes so you can see
Can you honestly say you believe what you see?
The warms blood pulsates out of my veins down my wrist,
I keep craving it's too strong for me to no longer resist,
You never realize how much red can truly exist with one glance,
So lost in the moment my eyes locked and lost in a trance,
Am I losing it? Is my head really okay? I really dont know,
It's hard to stay sane when it's so easy to lose control,
I stand in the rain to feel everything just pour at the same time,
Feeling so free and happy at the same time I feel just fine,
They crave so much more as I'm hearing them scream my name,
To me it's real life but to them it's only a fun game,
I'm only a pond to their cruel way of life they claim through me,
Alot of times I think this is how my life is ment to be,
Yes I know it's far from being over and it's just the beginning,
It's a mystery to me of what this life will actually bring me,
The older I get the harder it gets for me to have any kind of control,
It gets more clearer of how dark and cold I can get with my soul,
I've never seen my eyes get so dark and lifeless before,
I never really know what will happen next of what they have in stored,
Im not weak I'm only weak minded so stop with your words!
I speak what I am able to say cause i still want to be heard!
But I'm okay I'm fine,
It's only in my head, it's rarely kind
©deathbear
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