I'm trapped in a cycle created by my past. It's haunting,
The fear that it all left behind for me cripples, it's daunting,
Every step of my life is taken with consideration, or I panic,
Leaving all my eventual relationships uncomfortably manic,
I frantically attach myself as if I'm saved from having to drown,
Caught up in the moments before they start breaking down,
Trying to obtain something that for me is clearly unobtainable,
Just to end up deeper into the state of emotionally unavailable,
It's so obvious my consideration are something I should ignore,
But like a stubborn child i feel naive enough to come back for more,
Every time I feel hopeful my hope soon after decreases,
It's a sad story to put yourself together while your still losing pieces.
Makes sense or not it's what I've got.
©justin_ur
J