sometimes I wonder if I'm insane, because when I put this cold metal gun to my head I feel safe, free like I'm finally in control again, the thought of ending it makes me happy, it makes me smile, sometimes a pull the trigger just to hear the faint click, and when I open my eyes all the deadly thoughts they go away, come again another day, like the rain, all my fear just goes away, my heart feels like there's no more pain, so I put the gun down and wait till I need it again
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