This is to your memory. Danny man, i hope youre happy in heaven, and i hope you still remember me. It's sad to think, there's nothing left but these words. Nothing left, but these memories..its kinda funny how it started, cause we started out as enemies. Complete strangers, naturally drawn to danger.
Why did we waste so much energy fighting over kiley? Ill never know why we kept pretending to be friends, i could see the jealousy hidden in your smile.
All you wanted to do was tear us apart, and that hurt, like an arrow being plunged into my heart. Breaking down into pieces, consumed by pain, i was going insane trying to explain the never ending train of thoughts that were living in my brain.
It was like watching someone being torn apart by sharks, this was your entertainment, to you this was art.
When someone mentioned your name all i felt was this burning anger deep down inside, we could never agree, and all we did was fight. All the times we tried to be civilized became moments in time outlined with sentences entirely comprised of jealousy, and lies. Back then, i guess i didn't realize how two completely different people could be so much alike. Despite the disagreements, we provided one another with someone to despise. I remember the first time I asked you for advice, you got what you wanted that day. It was like you already knew what I was gonna say..I gave up everything i had, beyond hopeless, i had nothing left to lose.
Trying not to cry, i was tongue tied, and silent. I could've sworn i was dying, and i could tell you were excited.
I remember you came over that night, we smoked like ten bowls between the two of us, got high, and talked about life. I told you what was going through my mind, you took a minute to reply.. let out a deep sigh, and reassured me that you knew what it was like.
I know we didn't always see things eye, to eye, but we compromised. Your ideas were endless, like the friendship we developed. You're gonna be a part of who I am until the day that I die, its gonna be a long ride, but as long as you're by my side everything is gonna be alright.
Your character was impossible to define, but hey, so was mine. You were one of a kind, a blessing in disguise, born from the stars in the sky. You introduced me to my soul, and you opened my eyes when I was blind to the light. I wish i could rewind, or go back in time. I miss cruisin in the blazer with the homies, smoking only the best trees. You best believe our lungs were never empty.
I knew we'd be friends eventually, I mean, essentially we're both disturbed mentally. Born to reek havoc, there was no way of preventing the cause of a reoccurring tragedy. Gently, we created a path of destruction. We're all pot head, alcoholic, drug addicts that smoke cigarettes all day.
We mastered the art of corruption, like it was nothing. We were young, exploring an abundance of substances. Killing the anger with sedatives, coincidentally we had no control of our over active drug consumption.
Contradicting everything we promised not to do when we were kids, we must be hypocrites, it's probably just genetics, We must get it from our parents. Well, look at what we've done, I can't believe we did half the things we did. I've tried to be optimistic, I've tried to be positive. Wise beyond our years, every mistake we made was a learning experience. Yet, we fit the definition of a couple dumbfounded idiots.
Lost without guidance, drowning in the echo of our consciences, we did something instinctively opposite. Its common sense, it's okay to take your time. Doesn't it feel good when you take things slow?
We found our way to safety, I think it's safe to say our combination of crazy was meant to be.. Danny, you're someone to be remembered forever. Wherever you are right now, I hope life is better. If there really is a heaven, I know you're somewhere in the middle of your wildest dreams, and never ending pleasure. I hope you find your dad, so you can tell him about us, all the crazy shit we went through, and all the fun we had. Tell him all the stories you have, and make new memories together. Surrounded by angels, covered in feathers. Down here you left a mark that will never be forgotten, you left quite an impact. In fact, you made such an impact the collision was equivalent to a meteor smashing through a wall of glass, to be exact. I can feel your presence every time there's a change in the weather, for every word that falls off of my tongue, there's a little bit of you in every single letter. One day, we will meet again, my dearest friend. Until then, we're still a long way from the end." -Mental State. CR, TM.
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