Dear God

Dear God
Dear God I’m so lost
I’m calling on a sign
The one’s I’ve seen don’t seem to be mine
Depression in my life
Always has me somewhere crying
Feeling all alone makes me have thoughts of dying
The world would be a better place if I wasn’t here to say “ I hate life I wish I could just blow away” they call me selfish
I guess that’s easier to say
Uplift the skies, I still watch my people cry
Police brutality isn’t saving black lives
It’s like they want to see us die
The question unanswered is why?
Why hate me based off the color you see?
Is there a reason for your hate or is hate just a word you taught the world to say?
Dear God where do I go from here?
It’s hard to trust so I don’t let anybody get near
See everything is not clear
Losing my daughter is what I fear
Or me dying before I get a chance to see her teenage yrs
I stay to myself but don’t know if it helps
It leaves me fighting my mind
And the hurt that I felt
I was told to vent, it’ll allow me to be free
What is free? Is it something you feel or see?
An unsolved mystery
Is discovered in he
He who has the answers
Is like the Apple from the tree
You just got to reach
Love and make peace
And be the author of your story as your life increase.
©jnjones