A twisted road,
A rebellious journey,
A challenging code,
Towards life's journey
A journey that proved to be fatal
Fatal to the feelings i had
I gave you my trust
I gave you my heart
But it didn't matter
For you gave me a shattered heart
And a soul of lies
You truly hurt me
Did you even care?
Was it funny when you humiliated me
Lied straight to my face
While some aren't that bad
The majority was straight from hell
Did you find it hilarious when tears came brewing
Did you love when my brother dried my tears
When my mom heard my cries
I get you didn't like me
I get there was nothing there
I understand it was only me
But you didn't have to laugh in my face
Go through my things to find my secrets
Insult me in front of the whole class
Dear past...
Why did you do it?
Was it for laughs?
Did i do something wrong?
That's what went through my head
Every day when watching romance
Self-doubt crawling in
Planting seeds of loathing, self-hate
Did you know what your actions would cause?
The pain you inflicted
It took years and I'm still hurting
Not from a past love
But from the words, the actions
The negativity that you showed
The harshness of how you handled it
You could have said no
One simple word
But...
What's done is done
You cant change the past
But the past can change you
Learn from my pain
Learn from your actions, your words
Humiliation isn't it
Harsh words aren't okay
I only have one thing to say
Dear past,
Please find a better way
©orchid
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