I thought not holding a gun but a pen
Would solve the case of becoming a convict
Yet here I am locked up in my head serving life
Wondering will I ever see the light.
I won't lie can't deny the fact that I strived to servive I've been acting surprised going up and down roller-coaster life I'm no longer favoured I feel left out in this world I feel left behind.
I know you out there Jehovah but I'm so wounded right now I can't hold your word nor read it to gain the necessary strength once given to me by you once a porn time.
I cut my hair lost all strength let the devil inside my head now I'm blinded heart bleeding got no air suffocating I'm about to hit the ground knees first there goes my head im laying down dead.
All those around me my family my so called friends left me for dead, walked away from the scene like they were never there, my eyes rolling over felt that last moment staring into the heavens God are you there?
I have been defeated. I'm destroyed internally. Heart disjointed constructively. Mind conjunction like two planet's collision. I had won the battle but lost the war instead, if there was a chance for me to rectify my wrongs lead me once again to salvation father let me free from mental slavery.
By : Lorenzo Hendricks
Aka : The Unapologetic Poet
18/12/2018
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