Demons at Bay

I'm caught up in this drink in my cup
Thought I was on the brink of giving up
this addiction
is my affliction
it has me crucified
the cross I bear
see I want to cry
with all my tears
I want to over come this
I hate I am over run by this
for years
it teared
I swear
it is a nightmare
I got a bottle
I am on elm street
with each swallow
Freddy creeps in my sleep
I am already in to deep
shakes when I wake
I hate the aches
hung over, it's killing
just want sober living
all I got is shots
I am the bottom with rocks
I crave
I feel afaird
just a slave
in this cage
clutching on this addition
it is hard
I wish I can see a way
to keep these demons at bay
I wish I can see a way
to keep these demons at bay
Lucifer's hands on me
the fire burning me lonely
refine me of God
redefine me Allah
my anger grows
look at a stranger
I don't know
full of rage
I need change
standing on broken glass
hoping this drink will be my last
I reach for another
and see my weeping mother
I am disgusted I need help
I can't trust myself
I think no one wants me around
so I am drinking now
till my feelings are gone
I feel this is wrong
it is better than slitting my wrist
the bottle hits my lips
the liquor in my stomach
my liver I don't want it
I can't stand it
everything I do is redundant
sobriety I want it
but it seems too far
I am seamed with scars
1 and 2 the sequence
never thought through the consequences
I have a thirst to be quenched
till my fist is clinched
and I hit walls
I give it my all
on the table
feel so disable
I don't know how to stop
but I want it to drop
down the drain
I don't want this stain
to remain
it brings me pain
and drives me insane
I wish I can see a way
to keep these demons at bay
I wish I can see a way
to keep these demons at bay
Lucifer's hands on me
the fire burning me lonely
refine me of God
redefine me Allah