People lie and criticize.
My demons lie but in my head it sounds like truth.
When times get tough sometimes I don't know what to do.
What woman is going to want me when I have a history of killing myself and feeling blue ?
Your in the process of learning to accept yourself.
Every night I deal with a demon or 2 , some days it's a few , look n the mirror you'll see patched up wounds just waiting to be cut open once more. What have I become or the real question is have I simply lost control to keep my demons in check ? Either way letting yourself go is a heck of a lot easier , whether I'm seen by another or not I no longer care . To have to ignite a spark n another's heart just to get there attention forget that it's too draining. I prefer natural way of life,nothing that is predestined by fate should be forced . It's hard to face my self ,living in a personal hell who will be there by my side and say it's ok I'm here with you no matter the situation . Your pain is my pain , your comfort is my comfort, dark clouds fade away at some point ,until than I'll stay with you . Does true love exist or is it just a myth ?
©johncal
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