I've harmed myself in many ways
28 years feels like a million days
Jus wasted away.
People commenting
People complimenting
Looking acceptance in not accepting myself.
I'm hurt.
I'm disgusting.
I'm disgusted.
People try to lift you up
So they don't loose you? No.
So they can have something in common to talk about at your funeral.
I love you.
I loved you.
I got love for you.
I swear everyday I think why I have no peace where I lay my head
Why am I so deep in thought
I wanna let this shit go ALREADY!!!
I'm hurting.
I'm hurting.
I'm hurting.
IM HURTING!!!
My cries don't affect the world no mo
My heart doesn't gravitate towards anyone no mo
When self harm because a feeling familiar a reminder of just how close I am with self
No one else can feel or see you hurting
IT'S JUST YOU NOBODY ELSE!!
in this body of yours
In this mind of yours
In this soul of yours
This DEPRESSION is making a BREAKTHROUGH
If I don't break through and break loose first
The devil got my name tattooed and I can smell negativity on his breath
Yes I'm breathing life
But what would it b like if I took my last breath.
Oh y'all listening now, huh
Y'all see I'm serious now, huh
Where was all the love and the likes when my crying out was a sentence or two and not a fucking story.
I've harmed myself in many ways
28 years seem like a million days
I want a million more
But I jus have no direction.
©porsha..
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