My pains different
My pain is mental
My pain is a thousand nails being hammered into my scarred skin
My pain is bees stinging every part of my heart
My pain is fire ants crawling into my brain through my eyes
My pain is different
My pain is being awake at 3 am terrified to sleep
My pain is waking up at 7 because I'm still terrified
My pain is laying down and pretending to sleep until I actually do
My pain is forcing my body out of bed
Because I'm afraid of sleep not loneliness
My pain is unbearable
My pain is as if I'm dreaming
Somedays I believe if I bleed enough
I can wake up
I just need to sleep long enough to finally wake up
But
I'm still terrified of sleep
©diana_b
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