Disarray
Day in and day out I embraced the silhouette of a fully loaded gun that I played russian roulette with and was never able to run from, the walls closed in and manipulated my every breath away... she whispered thru my venomous filled veins, " with me, you are the chosen one and I am the only way ", I was bound like the hands of Father Time, breathed my last breath so now my story is twisted within all the riddles within all my rhymes, I hid in shadows because that's where the devil played, there was no love beating in my heart and I never denied that, itchy trigger finger leaving those that judged with a knife in the back, this reality was a dilapidated delusion but what lingered around was the utter pain of a self inflicted conflicted isolated seclusion, I believed she gave me the strength to make mountains move, found out the hard way that there wasn't ever even a small piece of the truth, looked death in the eyes far to many times, I challenged her like walking thru a field filled with nothing but landmines, even the days the sun held the sky it seemed that on me it never seemed to shine, barred up hope with the lost all slowly dying, I had to engrave the tears because my soul wouldn't stop crying, I had to look deep inside just to see if I was to far gone or was there some sort of chance to make things right, my eyes began to open and for once I didn't see like the blind, it took so many years but I realize that tomorrow is completely worth the fight, now I'm no longer a ghost wandering around and haunting the loneliness of the night.
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