I've sacrificed a lot in my life,
gave some "individuals" parts of my heart until I had nothing left to offer besides my soul and goals to go with it.
call me a fool or that dude that didn't own his ego or pride because he easily got broke and used left bruised by the one he thought had his best interest when it came to all these fake relationships gimmicks.
it's alright though, maybe I deserve to doze off and die, maybe my dream might come true where all my sorrows rise up oozing out of my skin to fly and touch the sky, leave my bones in this cold soil that hides my ancestors hopes as they fell in love just to die.
I think being a mommy's boy makes one soft and leaves you vulnerable to selfish people who claim to love you but can turn their backs on you the moment they face difficulties & you the one left salty and dry.
but.. but.. mom you told me to always be nice to girls they fragile and should be treated like Queens, why is it that I am the one holding a stone where my heart should be placed then explain that please?
it's so easy to play the victim! I'm so hurt, I'm going through the worst! I feel like my body is dead I'm being transported with a hearse ! like I don't go through phases where I feel my life is fading and my soul is about to be evaporated!
this thing called life isn't always nice one has to pay the price for seeking happiness in a place owned by a deceiving dark force sneakier than a mice! so why do some people think it's okay to ghost on those supposed to be in their corners when the walls are caving in at night?
but who am I to speak about this when it's clear nobody would led an ear, why bother singing "I love you" when we can't even see each other face to face to sit down and pray for better days and to have a stable bond that will never erase but instead now feels like someone is buying face!
I ran out of space! I can't store these bad incidents in this messed up brain! so excuse me if I come across like a pain in the ass mourning about someone ignoring my ass as it might come across I'm still stuck in my past ohhhh damn I sound so pathetic when I'm actually sad.
LB Hendricks
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