What is wrong with my world I do everything to keep us on a great path yet I'm lost and have nowhere to turn, I feel as though I'm doing to much and not getting anything in return.
It's been three years now and I can't trust the dirt you walk on being blessed with such a beautiful baby everyday I feel more and less that the child ain't mine, what do I do to find out the truth DNA is the right thing to do but what if my suspension turns out to be true, then what do I do. It's hard enough not knowing but my love for the child is rapidly growing how do I walk away from the one thing that keeps me going, if it's true how do I live without telling you and showing you I know. without building hate in my heart to see your face and pretend that there is love while feeling disgraced.
Should I be hurting not knowing the truth should I just do it get the DNA and suffer the consequences of my thoughts in hopes that my third sense of this whole thing is wrong.
©bratha
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