DO YOU KNOW HER?

Do you think you know her?
Do you know her favorite colour ?
Do you know her favorite shirt?
Do you know her best pants?
Do you ?
You don't know her babe
You don't understand her love
You know nothing about the Woman you call your wife
You know nothing about her life.
You don't know the burden she carries
You don't know the myriads of time she have soaked her pillows at night
You don't know the number of pills she have popped in her belly
You know nothing about the deep cuts in her thighs
Did you know she can't sleep at night?
I guess not huh!
Each time you leave her by her self
Do you know she cries her eyes out until you back?
Her heart is heavy
Her soul is as dark as coal
For she's as bitter as bile when you ain't around
And sweet as happiness with you around
How comes you never notice the pain hidden in her eyes
The cuts on her thighs
Each time you make love to her
How comes you don't hear her sobs deep in the night
Did you know she attempted suicide countless times
And each time the doctors pumped the pills out, a part of her would go with them
I guess you don't know that the latest attempt was two months ago while you went cold on her
She had to be confined in a hospital bed for six days
For six good days you didn't know she was dying of depression
For six days she hoped you would come back
She hoped you would save her
You see love ..
There is too much you don't know
I almost forgot
That big maroon hand bag you bought her
Claiming it was her favourite colour
Honey you got it all wrong
She hated that colour with passion
For that's the colour her rapist wore the day he raped her
It's the same damn colour that traumatizes her in her sleep
You look surprised now
You didn't know right
And yet you never asked
Well she loves blue and black
Ask her why
She prefers long sleeved shirts to hide her scars
The scars that she curved each night her mothers boyfriend molested her
The scars she drew each night her PTSD rose
Black is her favorite colour cause all her world has been filled with darkness ,
dark friends, dark hope dark heart , dark future
Dark home , dark everything.
She loves blue because it's your favorite colour
She's loves it because she loves you
But you, she don't know what to say about you
You called her petty all the time
You said she was always acting childish
But you never really cared
All the sacrifices she made for you
All the oceans and lakes she crossed just to be with you
All the excuses she made for your blows
Every story she came up to cover your mistreatment
Her favorite pants were the ones she wore
The night you came home drunk and tried to have your way with her
It had a side zipper and was too tight for a drunk man
And once again she was saved from the agony of going through rape once more
You never knew this , did you ?
She gave you everything
And you gave her nothing but more pain and agony
The maroon pajamas you loved she hated them the most
I guess you now know why, right ?
If only you cared a little more
Made her feel a little bit loved
Maybe well maybe
She wouldn't be six feet under
©magi
Words from my soul.
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain