Don't Go

I don't know if I can do it ...
To just let you go?
Pretend as if I don't love you ?
Pretend that I moved on.
To know we are both hurting for the same reason.
You see raw emotion, true sincerity, when I found out you have to leave.
You seen what I tried to hide.
All the tears that come down.
The panic attack taking place.
Vulnerable. Embarrassed. Foolish.
These emotions take over, and you see I'm powerless against them.
Avoid eye contact, body language turned away , hiding my face.
And then I hear it.....
I hear the cries you tried to hide.
Your hug is tight, as if you'll never let me go.
"I never thought I'd find someone like you".
"I wish I never fell in love with you".
Those words keep repeating in my mind.
There is no choice when you've been told you are being deployed.
And even though your still here,
It doesn't matter because I know what's to come.
Do you continue until the end ?
Or go your seperate ways right away, knowing they're still here?
Is there a right answer?
Follow your heart, they say...
But my heart is gone
Leaving me alone.
To face this.
By myself...
Again.
©ourreality