My heart's emotions won't allow me to break free! My hands are wanting to punch even break my phone in half. I can smell the devil's breath & feel its lips so close we can kiss. Why the fuck do you have me feeling like this?
Man..
I try to fight but I know I'm not pose to be fighting as hard still. I try to ignore but my pain implode through my body. I haven't tried praying as much knowing I should. But when I pray , I don't pray for my relationship i just mention his name & hope for the good.
See, now this really got me questioning God & the Universe. I can't keep mentioning my mother's death as if I was curse. She can't hurt me no more & truth abt that is not so appealing. But fuck that cause in order to live I have to deal with the living.
The devil the only one that got me woke to this shit. I see shit for what it is plain as day. But like a stray dog i come back every fucking time! I'm tired yo but obviously not that tired right?, I kinda sorta thought we was...nevermind.
Please act accordingly cause the demon alternating my growth only for this moment will make sure I act accordingly. That crying shit dead. That lying shit dead.
©porsha..
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