D.T.H

Loving you hurts, just as well as losing you hurts. I puzzle my brain looking for solutions to or dysfunctional relationship but I never seem to find a equation that justify my love for you. Lying next to you is like I'm whole. Then my insecurities invade my space with you. Controlling them is unbearable, the thought of living with out you is sicking to my soul. Then the hurt comes & destroys every dream I had of us. Loving you hurts, just as well as losing you. I cry with in to hold up my demeanor only til it falls beneath me & my true color shows. I fear that loving you can cause so many aches & pains to were I distance the only thing that makes me whole again. Is it a cycle? Are u my soulmate ? Can u say you love me & really mean it? What is your intentions with my heart? All questions left blank just like the love I have for you is blank. Take me in your arms make me feel whole & secure. We are bond together only thing missing is you. -Bidder Swyeet-