Ecist

Waking up is difficult.
I don't want to move.
I don't want to exist.
Why even bother?
Why even try?
I look in the mirror,
And grab my mask.
A smile for everyone else.
No one knows what goes on in my mind.
No one knows the pain I feel.
I see everyone at work,
They believe I'm truly happy.
They think I'm always smiling.
They don't know my scars,
They don't know my demons.
Somedays it's harder than others.
Everyone thinks I'm just tired.
Everyone believes nothing's wrong.
I'm just happy,
Nothing can be wrong.
I feel alone and I know I'm not.
I wish I could be better.
I wish I could be happy.
But giving up is easier.
Giving up is quicker.
Why do I exist?
What is my purpose?
What is the point?
I'll just smile.
I'll just pretend.
I'll just Exist.
©echo