every sigh.
every moment.
every waking kiss.
I wanna be lost in your gaze.
to feel something sweet.
to taste the bittersweet.
to die only when I see you.
dreams of you I'm fell victim of.
thoughts of lavender and jasmine.
yet I dream just to get by.
knowing sleep isn't a guarantee.
to want you and this passionate fire that burns me.
to weak to my knees I wanna be.
for being single to eluded me.
for loneliness to alienate me.
I see a couple cuddling in the park and I cursed the air I breathe.
love damnit why isn't it me?!
yet my dreams of you giving me the endless blues.
I grabbed my phone start writing a lovesick stanza.
yet I ache from sleeping alone.
a girlfriend like a friend whose miles away.
I dream of her once but you my mind can't escape.
you're my Ramona flowers that keeps seducing my mind.
yet it's just a dream.
as when I wake I leave you behind.
in a bed naked waiting for me to reappear.
envious of love I seem.
of being alone I have feared.
yet I suffer alone.
I suffice alone.
yet a fantasy is not a fantasy if you are there alone.
yet wet dreams are only safe when I'm at home.
the taste of a kiss I'd never known.
a touch of heat as I think of you every time we're on the phone just texting but the silence kills me.
the mundane quiet.
yet a whisper pricks my heart.
sweet sharp sincere.
a sincerity like a dagger.
yet it always carved out love.
the longing of wanting another started when everyone deemed my supposed girlfriend wasn't enough.
but is she enough for me?
that's the question.
so is love enough?
or am I a fool?
©darkmocha
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