So many questions in my mind
But I'm afraid to speak them out loud
Burying it along with my misery and longing
Just to make it all better
But I will never be better
For you had infected my heart
And I just stood there letting you do it
Hoping that you will be my cure.
I had lost myself
'Cause I gave everything to you
But it wasn't enough
To make you stay and contented.
After you left me behind
A cold realization entered my heart
I wasn't much different from a doll
An old plaything, so easily thrown away.
But I still clung to the remnant of what we had
'Cause for me, you weren't a temporary thing.
I let you see the vulnerable part of me
'Cause I want you to know who I really am.
Now my days and nights are full of silence
Slowly and surely it suffocates me
How I wish I could turn back in time
Where You and I still exist...
©october
O