the night of the last when I closed my eyes for what I thought was the last time forever I woke up when I realized where I was I felt relieved, relieved that I didn't fall into that eternal sleep but now I ask myself was it worth it to be woke up, I'm questioning myself wondering was it a mistake, why, why did you wake me just to make me feel like I'm not worth anything, to make me feel like I'm tiny so small, to make me feel like I don't matter and you don't care how I feel or how many tears fall from these eyes yet you still woke me, saved me, why did you save me? why not let me be and move to my eternal slumber why? all I want is to move to the darkness and never hurt, I just want the pain to go away, the pain and suffering, the physical, the emotional and the mental, and what hurts the most is when it all comes from the people who are supposed to love you the most, I just want everything to end..
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