Even if they knew.

I cannot sleep.
My tears fall upon my pillow.
A sad song it is.
A tale of love and life.
I used to hate those stories...
Every night my tear stained face has been hidden by a mask.
A mask I made out of fear.
Does anyone know of this mask?
Of course not!
If they knew it was a mask I...
well...
I was gonna say I wouldnt be wearing it...,
but that's a hell of a lie.
Even IF they knew I'd still wear this damned mask.
Even IF they knew I'd still cry every night
EVEN IF THEY KNEW ID STILL WANT TO DIE!
Well that was a hell of a fit right there...
I might even call it a shitshow.
But these feelings... they're real.
And they hurt... a lot.
I don't want them anymore.
But they linger.
I'd do it for her so as to say id do it for him.
You don't even know what the he'll that was about, huh?
Well... lets just say...
I can't fucking sleep.
©sweetwhisp