I feel the beating of my heart deep within my chest,
But I can't explain just how I feel to the one who knows me best,
Is this the definitive outcome of too much inner pain,
I feel I will never come back, I'll never be the same.
He tells me that he loves me, he tells me that he cares,
When he looks at me and smiles nothing else compares.
It hurts to think he'll find someone much better than me,
I want to believe there is hope, but not much farther do I see.
Is this what it comes down to, feeling so alone,
Is it what I need to do, walking into the unknown.
I'm scared, yes, you're right, I'm down right terrfied,
I try to move, to say the words, inside I'm petrified.
I want to scream I want to cry, I want to run away,
This is every demon that I battle everyday.
So I suppress the tears and suppress the rage, suppress my feelings known,
I said it before I'll say it again, I'm on a path to the unknown...
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