Calmly sitting outside with the cold,
As I stare at the moon shining alone.
How can I feel so dull and exposed,
While my brain's wanted to be blown?
I hugged my body while leaning in my sit,
Trying to figure out how my life is full of bullshit.
Tears are flowing from my dull and exhausted eyes,
Then suddenly, my silent sobs replaced by a lot of thoughts.
I realized how fascinated I am on how the moon shines alone,
Like it was its own damn comfort zone.
I'm so fascinated how the moon looks so strong,
Without feeling so wrong.
And now, I just wanna lay in my bed,
Without any danger thoughts in my head.
I just wanna feel so alive immediately,
Before I kill myself, stupidly.
©aesthetic1
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