bullets danced ricocheting through me.
as my heart was broken disappointed by times you left and let me down.
a sharp brief thousand needle pain shot through me.
tearing my insides as I began to feel it all.
every emotion.
every sigh.
every tear of red piercing my flesh bitterly.
every burning agony that became my downfall.
tears burning my eyes.
my very breath choking my chest.
yet the memory of you was fresh painted bloody red on my face as I fell.
right hand outstretched lingering dying to touch you but the pain was too much the loss was too much.
everything was excruciating reminding me of you.
I couldn't eat.
I couldn't sleep.
the night terrors became me at night.
wanting to scream but choking on my very breath as I awake in a cold bone chilling sweat.
I gasp.
another nightmare.
its 2:30 in the morning and the night just teased me.
a shiver shudder my bones as I got up feeling like hell.
as thought of you not being with me felt like exit wounds that wouldn't heal.
battle scars that I would wear like a full body tattoo yet I felt everything.
every kiss like poison though I savor the taste just to remember how you used to taste.
every touch like knives burning my flesh.
every thrust of your thighs as you cried my name moaning ecstasy in my ear.
biting my ear lope welcoming my dark desires yet I remember every one.
your perfume still lingering in my brain yet now it just bleeds.
yet I don't want to lose you my hand slowly starts to fade as another hand clenching my chest tightly.
golf ball drops of blood dripped in my hand as I stared gravely watching you Walk away like you held the Beretta in your soft but deadly hands the cool caressed the warmth of your hands.
I remember your sway so seductively.
yet I remember you bittersweetly as I faded to black as all cherished reminisce of you was wasted bullets carrying my heart away.
©darkdeity
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